Tuesday, September 30, 2008
sian SMRT have 2 train breakdowns in 2 weeks. wad the hell is wrong wit them la. anyway, LW told the sch le n i just gt a warning letter for nt my actions but my attitudes towards her,hack la. lucky huixin only get warning letter, no demerit. but when can get camera back: dont noe.
aft sch went to play puzzle hunt. RVNP top scorer then we try to break it but fail la. nv three eff will be back. dann funny la play wit different type of puzzle including erotic haha. had a damm gd time, the guys were also looking a chio bu ice skating, dann lot of chio bus la. trm is so funny la go n dance 4 2n half hours at clar
puzzle hunting !!!!
kim's hand art series 1
whose keys??
emo HX
who left the kid here
spas JH
emo JH
emo JH
cheek clem
looking at wad??
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 6:30 PM
Monday, September 29, 2008
today morning gt back my camera Sd card aft quiet some time. but a bit no use now la since camera juz gt confiscate. todae no LW lesson so no big prob, dont noe wad will happen trm. play basketball wit leonard aft sch, his dribbling getting better sia. sia now have to start studying. y life so sia everyday study and study and study, dann no life. feel like taking a break :(
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 5:54 PM
Sunday, September 28, 2008
today was realy a jk day. mother wanted to help me clear pimple then i so dont want. then she wanted to force me so dann irrated. feeling a bit sleepy want to take a nap, so she irrated me saying if i dont let her clear pimple, she dont let me sleep. then i lock the door. she get the key to unlock. i put things to block the door she just swing open. the i start satching the key from her but so god damm strong la. cannot pull the key out at all lo. the very sian i go and sleep in another room. she also come and ka jiao. in the end wasted 1 hour fighting. then went down play bball. come up then i still had to make her clear pimple. BUT, i earn 30 bucks haha but quiet painful sia.
looking forward to next wed, can go n dance. EOY coming still join competition. parents allow and support some more. today is a joker's day. ppl interested can go this website n seehttp://ashot2fame.blogspot.com/
n yeh nv tink her for 3 whole day, great improvement. i thought enough le la. like her n dont like her the same, life still go on. care for her like the same as nv care for her cause she take it as crap. be there is the same as nt being there cause there are more ppl in front of me. conclusion : GIVE UP
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:39 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
mug mug mug. exams coming so soon sia must start bia. but damm sian dont noe want to read.
toady first time spend 1 whole day mugging. miracle sia. sian now must go and mug le. jiayou everybody n wish LW dont kill hx or kill her haha
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:24 PM
Friday, September 26, 2008
today was just damm fuck up. LW talked to me for damm fucked up long and waste my time just want me to admit something stupid. i was wrong for taking out my camera, lefting it on the table and thus causing a commotion in class. confiscated my camera still ok, can get it back. then she become like a judge in a court saying wad my principal of life sux, wad i cant judge wad is rite n wrong. LW even say u are totally disappointed wit me. but i should say i am the one tt is so god damm disappointed. u are such a old haggr just like the sch.
now hx gt into deep shit, i better help her sia. she want to get the full fault but i cant let her. if she get a demerit i feel damm bad sia. any way i want to get 1 demerit so wad, the sch is so sux up man, i am juz so pissed of.
FUCK
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 11:56 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
it has been a week n i tink i can losing it. i doubt i cant hold on any longer. it only tok a few crack line n my wall is beginning to fall.the feeling is juz too dann strong sia. it is really hard to get out. i maybe be able to shut down my emotions in front of her but it is nt gd enough. it seems i still have a long way to go. i might juz lost my battle n back to square 1
EOY are coming n i hope i will nt be distracted or frustrated over this thing. i must score sia. n gd luck 4 every bod. a few more weeks n we Will be freed . n my table mate, u better buck up, dont wan to see u left behind. so study hard.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 4:58 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Today was the 1 time I test whether I can have her out of my mind most of the time N surprisingly I did it, quite a great beginning. Yet it still does feel like a bit of u is missing. A small missing piece is easier to find than a large missing piece so I should tink this way and carry on my path to getting my life back. However, it is dann sad that my 2 bros leo n LY still plan to be stuck in this crap. They are sure going to get hurt n I hope to be wit them, yet I cant I have my own road to go.
Thks to nt being too close to her, her hatred towards me only feeling like a pinch. Maybe I already noe tt I will get hurt badly so I instinctively GL her so tt the pain will nt be so great. This also prove tt the person around can hurt u the most n liking someone gives them the power to destroy u. destroying you maybe a little extreme but wad they do can definitely hurt. So I hope LY n leo can either jump out of it or progress wit her n always be happy ok.
Someone also tell me abt how bad she was in one aspect n I was surprised. I thought through wit great dept wad they said n realized it Is has a valid pt but I cant take in 1 side of the story so I hope to observe n see if this source is reliable. Maybe this conclusion can give me more reasons to get out of this bad dream.
But ironically I still have to start preparing wad I have to prepare. The present tt I had thought of. It was supposed to be filled wit all my heart but I nt sure is it still this way. Now wad is motivating me is only the promise I cannot break. Though I plan to forget her the final episode thing still is valid n I still will complete It no matter wad. That’s y I went to buy materials for wad is supposed to be the first present.
Life is just so weird, u can like n want to forget the same person at the same time.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:10 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Today is the first day I try not to tink of her. But it was really hard and seems impossible. Every now and then will sure have her image in my brain. Yesterday nite when I tried my very best nt to tink n forget her, I felt empty. I was hollow wit unable to tink can concentrate on any thing. I felt down n was feeling hopeless wit a very very bad mood. Then aft tinking of her it change, I was happy again n finish new moon. This just shows how much she has become part of my life.
However, I so don’t want to give in to this feeling. I am so going to give hard n I noe it is dann hard, but I will. I have lots of time n time heals. I have to grow up, I am so not going to be weak, I nd to become strong and take charge of my life. My life is mine n not decided by her. I cant always live by her rules. I really like her but I will like her n live my own god dam life
I am ready to embrace all the pain, emptiness and unwillingness to let go.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:16 PM
Friday, September 19, 2008
Today I suddenly have an insight. This insight has make me able to see things more clearly now, my horizon is also not restricted anymore. Love is blind and I have been running around like a blind man. Today is where I decided to move on and pass the stage of adolescence, as I become a new me. A me that will not tink n be crazy abt her any more. I have been to immature and might be forcing myself to still like her. But I tink I should stop her as it has turn into a commitment Anyway I the most hated person on her list so it is time to grow up n wake up from this bad dream by forgetting her.
Its time------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- to GROW UP
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 5:22 PM
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Today was very fun as the performance was damn crazy. The performers did so many stunts sia. All so pro hope to be like them. In front gt such a gd show, at the side also gt very attractive things to see sia. Can see without no obstruction, so happy. Then austin tell me how JM tried to take 963 in the morning, even when to zhui the bus. But so sad couldn't make. Nvm he still have many chances.hehe
then later start talking to LY. So emo lo, sick still tink of her. Then we started a emo conve n said how sad we felt because she emo so much. She emo make us very sad. Then when to her blog, see le even more pain.
“i really canot bring myself to pick up the phone..i felt my heart break.all i tot it would be turned out differently.its different now.all different.everthing is juz fake.with no meaning at all.after everything you said that it has no meaning?wow thanks alot man.go away.i will juz burst soon.i am juz such a failure who screw supe very shit in life.friend there equal to not there.i dunno.i hate myself.i hate every part in me.i want to die.the end:( ”
i just feel really vey pain, i want to comfort her but i cant cause i tink my comfort will just make her more sad. Dont even have the mood to eat. I really dont noe wad to do, i cant stop the pain. I also reaslised that no matter how she dao me, how is gua lian me, how she hate. Seeing her sad n emo hurts the most.
Pls cheer up no matter wad ok, pls? cause "No matter what looms ahead, enjoy everything u have. There will be people that will be there and always look on the bright side of life." Though she migh nt even see it.
I am dann, dann,dann, dann,dan helpless.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 7:02 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Today,,was CCA day, damn fun la, teacher 1 time teach everyone stunts sia, so sad LY nv come. Hope he will get well soon from his fever. See her very sian all the time.always staring into blank space n never even smile much. So sad, very useless cannot help at all. Wish she will be happy again soon. She emo really damn obvious also la, make me cannot concentrate, haha
Also didn’t manage to get new moon, have to wait until trm, hate to wait. Actually can borrow from her 1 but she don’t want say I too violent n don’t trust me. Maybe true la, if she lend me I tink I don’t even dare to read. I also said that if she don’t trust me then ok la don’t lend lo. But I tink she gt the wrong idea. But I actually meant that if she scared I spoilt her book then ok lo don’t lend then she don’t nd to worry much.
Anyway, GSM I so going to warn u if u ever, ever, ever hurt the person, I so going to make ur life miserable by hook or crook. Results is not every thing cause in life 人身是总合力 so stop removing a person of leadership quality from wad she can do best.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:13 PM
Monday, September 15, 2008
Today just finish reading Twilight, it is a damn nice n such a sweet book. Maybe it is weird for a guy to read that but a guy also can fall in love rite. Anyway, after reading it, I feel very happy n after seeing what SiQi did (not to me), it was even more sweet like eating sugar sia. I tink if my life continue to be so sweet everyday so I get diabetes le la. Trm must get new moon sia then will make my life even more sweeter. the cookies also dann nice and earn $4 from selling. Hahaha.
No matter how sweet the book was, reality is so not sweet.
My results suck man
LA-F9
Geo-C5
PHY-C5
Chin-C5( 1 time so low sia)
Math- A2 (deprove)
SS-A2( not bad at least gt improve)
Chem-A2 ( drop a little bit)
Now parents even give me time limit to reach home, even more sian.
hope trm cca can be fun, can start mastering things hehe
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:20 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Finally my blog is up wit a 1 post. nth much to post sia. Anyway still gt lots of thing nd to work on and many thing to master haha. nv see her for a few day don't noe she ok a not, hope she is fine n time to do hw so sian.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 7:04 PM
