Love B-Boy

Monday, September 22, 2008

Today was the 1 time I test whether I can have her out of my mind most of the time N surprisingly I did it, quite a great beginning. Yet it still does feel like a bit of u is missing. A small missing piece is easier to find than a large missing piece so I should tink this way and carry on my path to getting my life back. However, it is dann sad that my 2 bros leo n LY still plan to be stuck in this crap. They are sure going to get hurt n I hope to be wit them, yet I cant I have my own road to go.

Thks to nt being too close to her, her hatred towards me only feeling like a pinch. Maybe I already noe tt I will get hurt badly so I instinctively GL her so tt the pain will nt be so great. This also prove tt the person around can hurt u the most n liking someone gives them the power to destroy u. destroying you maybe a little extreme but wad they do can definitely hurt. So I hope LY n leo can either jump out of it or progress wit her n always be happy ok.

Someone also tell me abt how bad she was in one aspect n I was surprised. I thought through wit great dept wad they said n realized it Is has a valid pt but I cant take in 1 side of the story so I hope to observe n see if this source is reliable. Maybe this conclusion can give me more reasons to get out of this bad dream.

But ironically I still have to start preparing wad I have to prepare. The present tt I had thought of. It was supposed to be filled wit all my heart but I nt sure is it still this way. Now wad is motivating me is only the promise I cannot break. Though I plan to forget her the final episode thing still is valid n I still will complete It no matter wad. That’s y I went to buy materials for wad is supposed to be the first present.

Life is just so weird, u can like n want to forget the same person at the same time.

love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:10 PM