Love B-Boy

Friday, October 31, 2008

sry ppl nv blog for several days haha.sports day over le. n we owned again. we have won the overall hse champion 2 times a yr. i hv fuifil my mission tt jun kai n xiao xie.

i feel weird, i dont even noe myself. all the time i seem to be cheerful,stupid, retarded, hyper, crazy, vulgar, flirty(friendly).

i just want to be true to every1 n nt be some1 tt is fake
.i want to be a real person n nv show my burden as i rather carry it than share it.
i seem cheerful is to cover all the unhappy things.
most may tink i am tired n emo but actually deep inside i dont even noe am i even emo la. in fact i just feel so emotionless. i am like a walking zombie
i really want to give up every thing n be alone. out of this world, out of every body i noe, every 1 i cared, n the 1 tt i like cause i just dann sian diao.

i am changing. maybe u ppl will nt see a real me next time. i will be fake n nt cheerful anymore. i will be GL n a loner which i did in my primary sch yrs. i will be isolated in my own space from now on hehe. in fact i feel like giving up every thing i ever liked. dance, basketball, running, her, meis, bros, friend, 2G 07.

ya n this is finally la, i am going to quit dance nx year. i am going to leave RVDS, the place i stayed for almost 4 yrs. i cant really nt call it a second home but i did hv lots of happy memories. however also lots of bad 1s. maybe i was nv supposed to be in RVDS at all. i shd i nt taken up dance. but all the sec 4 seniors( currently in JCs) tt i meet are so gd. i still hv unfinished promises etc. maybe i shd nt even go 4 dance chalet since i might just ruin it as i am nt really welcomed

in fact i tink i shd nv join this yr's SYF by ponnig the selections. i am nt really gd. n with my attitude, i will make all my dance mate hv a hard time. i will only cause trouble cause i am too use to being inmature n stupid. i just going to go 4 now. sry 4 all the sec SYF guys 4 leaving ur. ur can do it n make RVDS proud:)

love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 5:39 PM