Love B-Boy

Thursday, January 22, 2009

oh leo happy birthday again bet u love ur balloon rite hehe. n mine is no point n dann gl.hope u dont eat tt can of hamster food hox. l8r tio food posioning say is my fault. haha

these last 2 weeks were tiring. dance dance dance hehe. dann siao la, especially the juniors. they dance like almost every day for the past 2 weeks. they will be getting dann imba sia. haha me still there slaking n nt able to focus. dann stupid i just cant force my self to go all out any more. dont noe is it because i am nervous or am i just plain hack care. i just dont understand y i can do my tricks well sia, they shd be the easiest to do of the whole dance wad. but still i haven do the best yet. am i always nt trying my best? am i nt always dancing but just fooling ard. maybe i rly cant dance, i dont hv the ability to even focus n dance n my tempo 4 music sucks sia. all the time i screw the dance up sia. seriously i rly dont 1 go SYF dann scared i destroy it sia. wtf no wonder su lao dont dare let me dance, cause i dont even noe how to do it well.
hack soon will be leaving, shall just try to improve 4 the time being. SYF try as much as possible to do less things n CNY dance dont screw it up haha. better start training leh.

n seriously i dont noe wad problems am i facing now. i seriously hv to mood to mug. is it because of dance or is it because of other reasons. n i dont noe y i always feel so sian diao. but still i will try to be crazy cause i cant emo.maybe if i emo den will be more serious dan i wont screw the dance up. n this few days in my mind there is always some stupid things i feel like doing n i hv the strong urge to do it. then this might be the end of smt. n i broke a promise if tt happens. tink i shall do it aft CNY holidays, at lest wont affect the people's holiday mood.

i am so getting dann nt myself. i am getting dann materialistic, dann ego , a bit emo , easily jealous of others, n super no more confidence. worst i am getting dann arrogant when i hv nth to be proud abt wtf. wad the hell is wrong wit me. y does the new yr hv to start like this ....

love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 3:45 AM