haha today is wan leng's 18 birthday lol. nx time gt another person to help us buy vodka leh lol. hope u hv a great birthday though u are 1 yr older. getting older n older xD

n run in the morning n the guys' stamina are improving which is very gd haha. soon they maybe abe to run below 10 mins hehe. n dio n cheryl are seriously dann hardworking. they run also la, dann hiong sia. all the other guys tt dont come PT l8r even they can run faster den u lol.

n wtf i gt the worst mark 4 my chinese tt i can ever gt. i gt 22 out of 70. dann gg and it is graded somemore. can rly start crying, failed 3 subjects. emo sia. lol i tink i nd help but i dont feel like mugging.

suddenly i was tink how was i like last yr. n i realised i changed a lot. i am getting very emo which is a super bad thing. n i am very quiet now( compared to last time). n i tink i am getting very mean, keep on suaning ppl. if only i can go back to the past, i will still be the cheerful me nt caring abt anything n everyday happy. yet now i am stressed up wit dann lot of things and getting into a lot of big mess. maybe this is the process of maturing.

if i hv a choice i rather be stuck wit my low IQ n mei you jian she xing 4 life, at lest i can be happy where everything is just so fun despite problems haiz...

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 3:55 PM

ok today was pretty suck up. i ran in the morning n quarrelled with jm again. maybe we really have different opinions n also i hv abit of problems. i noe i maybe be very GL n Kaopei n arrogont to u n all the time it seems tt i look down on u. if tt is the impression i give u, i am sry. i cant be the perfect senior u want. i cant be a dancer u want. i can improve but it will nd some time. n if there is rly a problem pls just tell me. i dont 1 to quarrel wit u without knowing the reason 1. i hope tt we will nt quarrel again, it is rly dan frustrating 1. i also hope tt u can also have a stronger urge to improve. dont stop pushing yourself, u can run faster den force urself to. dont slak leh la.

den it was the dann sway da of my life. i gt back 2 science and i failed-terribly. chem i gt 14.5 while phy i gt 15. pretty pathetic results. if i dont buck up i dont tink my GPA can reach 3 this yr. den nx yr i shall retain n meet my juniors haha. lucky my maths was still ok did quiet well. but it can help much. sian this term my GPA sure dann shit 1. but wad is the point of crying over spilled milk. shall work harder 4 mid yr exams. gg to start mugging leh. but b4 tt i shd take a nap, rest leh den can hv more energy lol

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 5:54 PM

morning took a morning run of 3 rounds which took abt 4 min 30s and was already pretty tired doubt will be able to even maintain tt pace 4 for another 3 runs la. den dont noe y la but aft the run, felt dann sleepy so sleep like from 8 to 9.40. nv listen to both LA n SCS haha. Den the rest of the day was pretty slak especially CID which is always time to talk cork.

n finally it was cca and the props came too. in the end we start cheo more moves and was dann freaking tiring. all the running did nt help a single shit. in the end we only cheo like 20 plus seconds but was super tiring can gt dann lots of moves. trm i tink i am gg to hv lots of aches, hope i still can run lol.

aft dance when to cck to eat. went to pasta and cost me a lot when i left wit dann little allowance. shall eat less from now onwards.( nd to slim down lol) n at pasta, it was rly dann stupid. i tink the dinning etiquette rly sucks like shit. i was totally eating like a person tt dont noe how to use a fork and knife. the way i eating is dann unglam n it sucks. must improve sia. l8rly ppl dont want ask me go out n eat leh haha.
n nt bad totally was rly distracted by dance. the hard core training rly can stop my mind from tinking hahaa. lols

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:59 PM

wanted to post but it seems tt gt nth to post leh haha. den wad can i post abt-
how easy or how the maths test was?
how the c divsion net ball gals owe the other team ?
how boring of me doing my PI early in the morning ?
sadly all are boring so no point.

crap today have CCA = see some1 = to train like mad = will get distracted = nt seeing tt some1
haha n today shall go run a bit. warm up 4 the next 2 days where the really hardcore training is gg to start. ( to get a timing of below9.30 min )also it seems all those physical activities are a great way to nt tink too much. can stay focus haha.

life is so full of distractions,
and the only way not to get distracted is to
distrac t yourself from the distraction with another distraction lol.

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 5:13 AM

haha now i hv damn little ppl to diao xiao leh. but is seem like a gd thing. everything is ending just like a fairy tale. every thing happened so fast and it is such a gd thing. dann seeing happy ending is just so great haha. n looking at all my bros finding their happiness, feel so dann happy too haha. l8rly like emo a lot also dont noe y but i wont emo over my own thing leh. must stay happy cause my bros are:) life is so dann great wit every body staying happy.
i shall 把幸福建立在别人的幸福上 cause this is a very gd way to distract hehe

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:25 PM

dann this few weeks have been acting way too weirdly. become seriously kao pei and guai lian. also sound dann emo and f*** up with my life. maybe i am seriously getting a dann f*** up life but who cares. and i seriously feel very bad cause i di xiao dann lot of bros and dance mates abt tt love life. maybe even complicating things and making them dann pissed. maybe doing this is just my character, the mean person tt cant be nice. hope those ppl tt gd di xiao nv get pissed and wadever i said i didnt mean it. i was just joking. dann i better less GL.(dont noe say like how many times leh but still just as GL. even getting bad to worse)

n trm sucks gt dance and geo test. gd luck to ppl who get tests this week haha

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:04 PM

today is so many ppl birthday again haha. from jason tt zhu gong gong from 2gd4u, to mr desmon lim and jian hao from dance. but sadly didnt manage to birthday bash them at all. jason run too fast leh cant mango him. mr lim is teacher, we birthday bash him i tink we all die la. jian hao had to dance so no chance.

n i am officially gg to be single until yr 6 cause of some reason was quite emo due the reason i was rather so dont 1 care abt this kind of thing at lest can be happy n concentrate on studies. :)
. so no crushs , no steads , no relationships. i swear tt i am so nt getting in love cause i tink tt love is a bad thing and has been getting way too despo it is bad n1 it makes ppl emo
2 it makes ppl distracted
3 it is heartbreaking
4 nd put in a lot of effort
the most important reason. it nv last unless tt person is destined to be ur wife/husband.

just like the saying. in ur life u will meet 3 kind of person
the person u love,
the person tt love u
n the person tt u spend ur whole life wit.
but sadly nt all 3 of them are the same person

also because i tink i am nt prepared la. i am nt gd enough to be a gd BF must improve u noe
1 i am nt rly caring enough
2 i am too Gl
3 i am too nt serious
4 i am a totally joker
5 i am nt mature enough
6 i am nt easily attracted to gals
7 i am sweet enough
8 i am nt able to cheer ppl up
9 i am dann bad
10 i just cant make it lols

ok this seems emo but it is just smt stupid. cause today is like a stupid day 4 stupid things n dance was pretty stupid cause we nv even progress n we are short of time already lol.

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:13 PM

ytd my vday was boring n dumb. but in the end saw some sec 4 dancers n went out to eat haha. didnt noe gals actually talk abt the same things as guy. tot they will say different thing 1 lol
haha

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:28 PM

yes Valentine's is finally here haha. hope everybody hv a gd n sweet valentine's wit a hot date lol.
dann vday is here but it is definitely nt a day i rly like. it is gd to see couples tgt but to tink abt it yet u are alone
ytd, it was just such a sweet n happy day. the joy of giving n receiving, the sweets, chocolates, i noe it is wrong to jealous, seeing ppl happy, may make me a bit happy but when my situation sucks
and lots of other things. n most importantly seeing ppl tgt haha. it is like anything tt can be when the hell will it be my time. dann i am getting dann pissed off being single, nt tt i am despo la lol
sweeter than sugar i being wit the person u love la lol.some more wont get diabetic. hehe. it is just tt i am sick of myself nt trying hard enough, always giving up early. maybe is because of my behavior causing the problem
den went to harborfront wit yr 4 dancers without a few souls only. 1 go away to mac to do dont i will nv say sweet things though i noe how to. i care but it will sound like GL.i will nv let my emotions take over.
noe wad. the other sat there n keep on thinking abt her n koping food lol. but still wadever
i will nv emo in front of ppl. n most important when i love i dont seem to go all out cause there is no nd
happens, wad they do are just god damn sweet. nt bad there is gg to be 2 yr 4 dance couples. too it seems tt i can nv find a GF so i tink i give up hope leh cause i dont hv the quality to be1, also i am dann scared of hving BGR
obvious so dont nd to say leh la. 1 i LS n the other is JX(get the clue??) jm did nth much but the
this is just so dann ironic. want to find some1 u loved but scared of getting into a relationship so dann stupid
gal did quite a lot. leo on the other hand did a lot. from flowers tt only can be smelled by her,
i just dont even noe of my feelings at all too n also because of some reason. i am confused. dann y did i hv the emotion-love
softtoy tt is meaningful to the gal( n also help me earn 3 meals haha). n even sending her home.
i rly hope tt i could be striped of it n be single 4 life. den it wont fucking hurt so much.
so conclusion leo is more sweet than jm
seeing ppl able to love who they want to love but i just fucking can do tt. i am rly sick of myself. being so god dann stupid
reason : jm too hum
so dann contradicting. danni rly hopeless towards relationships.single 4 16 yrs n gg to be for another lifetime
improvements: be a man just show her la
i tink opposite sex friends are actually nt nd.when u hv a GF or BF. cause all u tink abt is tt person
wad a gd day man,
y the hell is love so dann complicated. i seriously tink i am gg to start the whole numbing process again just like last yr
totally rocks the hell out. but damn i was late 4 home n took a cab n rush home. in the end
because i am more focused this way n i feel better this way, i can do better in results too
parents nt even home wtf. wasted!!!!!
from now onwards, no more playing only mugging n excercise like hell so tt i can just take tt thing out of my mind
still i GL way too many ppl tt now i tink i hv dann lot of ppl pissed wit me but who cares VDAY
gg to hack care abt everything. nt gg to care anymore. gg to be a heartless ass hole. also shall be bad to everybody hehe
more important. n today i hv 1 date wit my flag day can haha. shd target couples sure give a lot
i will also be less GL but be more kaobei n i will let nv laugh n smile again i want to be as hard n as cold as a stone
haha. so dann meaningful vday do gd things ( but actual reason, too noob couldnt find a date lol)
will these change succeed. wait n see the improvement of me man

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 4:35 AM

these days since sch reopen is just totally crazy. sec 4 life is dann f$$$ up busy. feel dann freaking stress. how am i gg to survive when i already start feeling stressed up in the 1 2 months. lots of freaking hw n test. somemore this yr is yr 4 dann crucial sia, must get GPA 3. hv to work dann hard. yet i am nt in any mood to mug. cause hv nt been putting in effort during lessons, i hv a fear tt i will flung all my papers. tt 1 i feel so god dann stress. n chem test is today n trm is vday, still rushing through presents but made a rly bad mistake though.

cca is also a little bit stressful. now yr 4 must be a gd role model but i seriously doubt i can. is like i can nv be serious n all the time playing ard. dann i rly hope if only kai ge was ard can take care of us. but still i must learn to grow up but the problem is how to.

relationship also very stressed. di xiao my bros of their gals. doing matchmaking n craping. but i seem to be getting very bad n i am nt rly treating meis( hv nt talk to 3 meis much 4 a very long time ) n friends as caring n as gd as last time. nt rly sure is it because of tt reason but i am gg to get back to my old self. if nt tt reason will make me way to distracted n i hv a super high chance of retaininng.

conclusion i am so f%%%ing gg to get in form n score well start i will also nt be distracted by tt reason which is affecting me quite badly. but i am nt rly sure can i treat my friends as gd as last time??? just hv to wait n see. ng wit my chem test.

n dont noe y number 60 is such a "beautiful number" which links to "beautiful pic" haha ok this is rly very mean but is just a jk xD hehe.

n ppl are saying my post a bit emo but the fact is tt i am just reflecting haha.i am still very happy haha lols though is abit stressed up.

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 3:16 AM

yes my 100th post leh hehe. seems like i hv been blogging a lot. lol.
i am so gg to get sick. down wit flu, sore throat lol+love sick
hope i will hv fever soon so i can hv mc lol.
n nth much to blog abt so shall go watch manga haha lol

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 2:50 AM

yeah had dance today tt was as imba as usually. dont noe how to survive sia. n it seems like every fri always dann lot of ppl emo leh. this just sucks la. wth is wrong wit him, cant he be a little bit nicer. now ppl are emoing because of wad u said. it is also dann stressful 4 the com heads where they hv to help u clear up the mess. dann if only u were nicer. there will be no such problem. nvm scolding doesnt help. the only thing shd be done is to get use to it. peeps dont emo abt wadever thing it say. learn to ignore it. if u want to do well, u must stay focus. ur all hv to skills to do it. just nd more passion. dance nt because u hv to dance. dance because u feel like dance or even because u are nt dancing alone. we are all a grp. so lets dance our best n show how imba we can be. dancers ftw.jiayou n hang on 4 a few more months. hehe


n today was a day wit too much sweets stuff n stupid things. leo hox lols. split my pants doing smt stupid haha. n i also feel dann bad cause i kaobei some1 way too much haha. sry hox. but nvm 4 the sake of ur zhong shen da shi u wont mind rite hehe.

i must improve every aspect to match up wit all the dancers. n i will complete ce kong by this month. show tt guy how a mei jian she xing person become imba. SYF is here n is time to improve tgt wit every body haha

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 2:08 AM

omg haha. i still haven get back my phone. this rly sucks. no phone no contact no music. hope they will return soon. but sadly i am just dreaming too much lols.

n ytd cca ended early. was almost a miracle sia. but still it was dann hardcore. i dont noe wad can we expect this friday we will do too much haha. will we die of imba training???

n i am broke buy too much vday things leh. i spent 40 bucks leh la. say bb to my saving. omg must start saving or even look 4 a job lols. hehe

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 6:00 PM

life is just so dann great. ytd was the sways day of my life. crap
woke up in the morning, dad found the com behind my door. now he took it back into his room
this means if on fri n sat i want go online late i hv to find other means

6hrs l8r.
was sms ppl den he saw me sms n start counting how many sms.
in the in the end he said i send abt 30 sms in 3 hrs. to him is way too much n this will affect my results. is like i send 10 sms per hr ,1 sms per 6 mins or 1 sms per song la. rly a lot meh. wtf
so my phone is confisated. say bye bye to my songs n sms. gg to be rly sian.

6 hrs l8r was preparing to go sleep when i used the hse phone in my room to call some ppl
den my dad found out again n unpluck the line from my phone.
dann no more late nite talks any more. wtf


dann sway sia. lols
lucky today maths test nt tt hard n trm very slak in lessons. nt sure will cca be this slak. dann i sure gg to die la.

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 5:17 PM

omg today was so dann shuang. ease my urge tt i hv tried to control. the urge to gamble haha cause today went mr lim's hse.
the impressions u will get when u see his house
he is god dann f***ing rich
his hse a bit the big only la like 4 story high
n he has lots of fishes

his hse became a instant gamble den. gt 3 tables of diadi 1 table of bridge 1 table of majong. if police come n raid his hse i tink mr lim sure can cry 1 sia.
we were al gambling wit money some more la.
n mr lim even join in the gamble.
n tio pawn like shit. lose a lot of money in diadi especially
in the end i won. i won 1 dollar haha

den when to mdm ong hse. saw how chio she actually was last time when she was very shou. saw her baby girl who is dann cute. n dinner was pizza. sat there n watch tv b4 heading home
irrating curfew .when can my parents allow me to go home late wtf. i am like 16 can go club leh lo

  love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 1:08 AM