Saturday, February 14, 2009
yes Valentine's is finally here haha. hope everybody hv a gd n sweet valentine's wit a hot date lol.
dann vday is here but it is definitely nt a day i rly like. it is gd to see couples tgt but to tink abt it yet u are alone
ytd, it was just such a sweet n happy day. the joy of giving n receiving, the sweets, chocolates, i noe it is wrong to jealous, seeing ppl happy, may make me a bit happy but when my situation sucks
and lots of other things. n most importantly seeing ppl tgt haha. it is like anything tt can be when the hell will it be my time. dann i am getting dann pissed off being single, nt tt i am despo la lol
sweeter than sugar i being wit the person u love la lol.some more wont get diabetic. hehe. it is just tt i am sick of myself nt trying hard enough, always giving up early. maybe is because of my behavior causing the problem
den went to harborfront wit yr 4 dancers without a few souls only. 1 go away to mac to do dont i will nv say sweet things though i noe how to. i care but it will sound like GL.i will nv let my emotions take over.
noe wad. the other sat there n keep on thinking abt her n koping food lol. but still wadever
i will nv emo in front of ppl. n most important when i love i dont seem to go all out cause there is no nd
happens, wad they do are just god damn sweet. nt bad there is gg to be 2 yr 4 dance couples. too it seems tt i can nv find a GF so i tink i give up hope leh cause i dont hv the quality to be1, also i am dann scared of hving BGR
obvious so dont nd to say leh la. 1 i LS n the other is JX(get the clue??) jm did nth much but the
this is just so dann ironic. want to find some1 u loved but scared of getting into a relationship so dann stupid
gal did quite a lot. leo on the other hand did a lot. from flowers tt only can be smelled by her,
i just dont even noe of my feelings at all too n also because of some reason. i am confused. dann y did i hv the emotion-love
softtoy tt is meaningful to the gal( n also help me earn 3 meals haha). n even sending her home.
i rly hope tt i could be striped of it n be single 4 life. den it wont fucking hurt so much.
so conclusion leo is more sweet than jm
seeing ppl able to love who they want to love but i just fucking can do tt. i am rly sick of myself. being so god dann stupid
reason : jm too hum
so dann contradicting. danni rly hopeless towards relationships.single 4 16 yrs n gg to be for another lifetime
improvements: be a man just show her la
i tink opposite sex friends are actually nt nd.when u hv a GF or BF. cause all u tink abt is tt person
wad a gd day man,
y the hell is love so dann complicated. i seriously tink i am gg to start the whole numbing process again just like last yr
totally rocks the hell out. but damn i was late 4 home n took a cab n rush home. in the end
because i am more focused this way n i feel better this way, i can do better in results too
parents nt even home wtf. wasted!!!!!
from now onwards, no more playing only mugging n excercise like hell so tt i can just take tt thing out of my mind
still i GL way too many ppl tt now i tink i hv dann lot of ppl pissed wit me but who cares VDAY
gg to hack care abt everything. nt gg to care anymore. gg to be a heartless ass hole. also shall be bad to everybody hehe
more important. n today i hv 1 date wit my flag day can haha. shd target couples sure give a lot
i will also be less GL but be more kaobei n i will let nv laugh n smile again i want to be as hard n as cold as a stone
haha. so dann meaningful vday do gd things ( but actual reason, too noob couldnt find a date lol)
will these change succeed. wait n see the improvement of me man
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 4:35 AM
