Monday, March 30, 2009
yeah now i am left wit no music n no more alarm clock haha. hope i will able to wake up trm.
n piano is dann hard, cant believe a muscial retard like me is trying to learn it.
tink i will just give up n smash the piano haha. lol
n sudden, i hv no feel to dance inter dance haha.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:51 PM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
haha today was a cool day. had service learning n feel dann happy when see people enjoying the games we tried to plan 4 them. aft tt joining jas, sm,leo, farrah to celebrate jas birthday. hehe jas is dann lucky la become 1 of the 30 lucky person to go see fei lun hai( spare me if i spell wrongly) lol. maybe lucky sunday rly exist. anw haha jas had a super happy birthday day which is so great. maybe seeing ppl happy can rly make yourself happy. like seeing some ppl being very sweet to each other also very gd la. haha life totally rock man (: if only everyday can be like tt.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:25 PM
boo yeah it is finally here haha. jas neo xin yu is 16haha. happy birthday xoxo. lol being 16 hv just so much benefits
1can go clubbing except wit no liquor
2can go watch n16 movies( dont noe how u get in to watch coming soon)
3legal age for ...... fill in the blanks urself hehe XDXD
but sadly 16 also means
u grow old liao haha.
but nevertheless hope u had a happy and fun day haha. dont happy until forget tt today is ur birthday lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 4:58 AM
Monday, March 23, 2009
haha 1 day of sch n wit a few days of gd rest. i am feeling better n mind can tink clearly now la. n haha trm gt cca but also gt CID can hv the talk cork session for 100 mins lol
n this saying is verying meaningful
"before every record is broke, it always seems impossible. "
i am gg to break my limits this time.
no more holding back
no more slaking
must study hard n own ppl
must fight 4 wad i want hehe
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 6:39 PM
Friday, March 20, 2009
haiz finally 1 whole week of hard core training is over. much has happen n i dont noe wad the hell i am thinking n doing. i dont noe if this is because i am too tired both mentally or phyically or is it my judgement is blind by emotions. i tink i rly nd to sort up my thoughts, cause i am rly doing rly rly rly stupid things. my eyes are rly getting blinded, my judgement is getting irrational, my version is getting foggy.
sry jas 4 doing tt stupid thing, i rly dont noe wad is wrong wit me. maybe i shd just stop being a senior cause i rly immature haiz
n to tt person who i rly gt a wrong impression. i tink i was blinded by my emotions tt day. u was actually nt tt kind of person. in fact i tink u are actually quiet a very gd senior. y didnt i tot wad u were doing is actually for the sake of her. maybe i see things wrongly or i am a rly very xiao xing yan person. rly suck sia. haiz
以小人之心夺君子之fu
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 7:22 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
i dont noe how long i can hang on. dance is rly very tiring, both mental n physical. lucky thus gt break otherwise i will rly die la. i am like a little bit sick hope i wont spread the germ to dancers. now near SYF, everybody must try to keep their body healthy lol. 1 more day b4 i can hv a gd gd break. n to end of i tot this jk is rly cool.
wad do u get when india horse and a africa horse cross breed. wad do u get lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:47 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
woah today had the 1 combine sch prac. it was dann shuang la, finally can see nj the dance. lol. n aft seeing tt dance, the guys all seem motivated to dance n go all out. maybe every since the seniors left, we might hv lost the motivation to dance well ba. but now wit them back i believe we can push ourselves to higer heights n break our own limits. n all the other dances are also very nice n is like combine sch prac, we are all improving a lot. we are all doing much better than usual. hope we can learn more from each other haha. especially all the stunts from nj haha. they are rly gay shit 1 la. but sadly su lao ban me from faning. haiz shall do it in secret ba haha.
maybe u are rite, we rly lack discipline( from we did other ppl sch den can tell le), we are nt sustaining our gd reputation as RVDS(in fact we are tanishing it). maybe we must rly learn to play n focus at the correct time. i noe i may hv been one of the main contribution to this problem, but i will try to focus. as for u i hope u dont be angry wit urself ok. is our fault nt urs. we rly nd to have some self discipline n self control leh, if nt we rly wont grow up
today had rly dann lot of motivation to dance la, was able focus quiet well in the dance, but still dont noe how to smile. happy but still wont smile. looking 4ward to trm combine prac n chicken rice haha. n it is xing fu thing to hv people caring 4 n cheering u up when u are down. y dont we spread love n care n be 1 untied dance society. RVDS FTW haha lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:04 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
haiz holiday is here but it seem like there is no holiday. n the holiday doesnt rly to be a happy 1 . there had been lots of changes in dance, nt only in only the dance. but more how we are behaving. it seems tt everybody is getting very stress, everybody seem to be changing, the people tt i once know hv all changed. we are behaving out of normal and has this stress cause us blinded our judgement. i dont noe wad the hell is gg on, i can see the cracks in the untiy we rly so much on. i see there are getting more and more conflict, more and more misunderstand, less and less tolerance, less willingness to compromise. how are we gg to dance tgt when we cant even trust the person beside us, put down our difference, n accept other's mistake n weakness.
i dont noe, i rly dont noe wad to do. this feeling of nt knowing wad can actually be done.
haiz being a senior is just so hard, i rly rather be a junior lol.
still now there must be smt tt hv to be done. but i cant do it alone.
i cant make ppl more understanding
i cant make ppl learn to tolerate each other
i cant make ppl lean to be rational in their judgement
i cant make ppl nt hv conflicts
i cant make ppl accept each other's diffence
i cant make ppl united cause it is nt possible it nd everybody's effort.
if only we can do it den we can rly dance well in our SYF. hope we can rly bond in the nx weeks combine prac
haiz i dont noe shd i tell leh, is like i noe u are rly dann stress n it is hard to be a leader, but u cant let this blind ur eyes or even become the cause of y u are so easy pissed n hv serious mood swings. n if u are gg to be lidat, it will nt only be u tt is affected, ppl ard u will also affected. or maybe u rly changed tt i dont noe wad are u any more
oh ya ppl hope ur take care of urself. dont overstrain urself, cause nx week will be a rly hard week n we must be rly healthy to be able to pull through. so hope ur get as much rest as possible. drink lots of water n take gd care of ur throat if it is sore. ppl tt catch flu shd rest even more. if everybody take care of ourselves den can we do our best nx week lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 11:57 PM
Friday, March 13, 2009
ok today cca was hiong. dance lots of time. den had dinner at vivo n but ate nth. n did a dann fun prank haha. u maybe complaining we very bad but deep down inside u must be thking us rite haha.
n yeah rvnb c girls is the west zone champion haha. so happy tt they gg 4 the finals. must jiayou hox. get national 1 haha. n sian, now i must dance better leh, cause wei lin is like say i must get GWH. but it seem very hard. there is like dann lot of thing nd to improve sia. dont noe wad to do to help n be a senior like jun kai . dann i must rly be more focus and push my limits. but i dont noe how to. haiz, no matter wad hope i can pull through this period n jiayou everybod, trying their best to improve the dance. we can survive it haha.
n den dann qiao thing happen. i wanted to call wei lin but could reach her, so i called her netball friend A. but it seems tt A is nt even some1 i noe, but yet i have her number. n some how A also noe me even though she is like from nan hua n is sec 2. n she told me tt her senior gave her this number. n more shocking facts is tt she is from the same pri sch as me n even the same teacher. n aft much thinking i finally found out how i gt her because some1 named K is so clever enough to give me the wrong number. i was asking for the number of another A wit from our sch. lol still how did her senior noe me remains a mystery. but i have a feeling is some kind of stupid prank haha. lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 10:56 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
haha. my parents are gg overseas leh. i am all alone to myself. shall be a bad boy n stay out late. maybe even tried go clubbing. with my parents nt ard, i nd to keep my hse clean n iron my own clothes haha. n ppl dont call this number 67624393. cause it will divert to my mum's phone. n u dont 1 to waste money on overseas call rite lol. call 67653329 or my hp haha. finally gt my phone back. freaking happy haha. n haha can start spamming sms like no trm cause gt unlimited sms hoho. thought elton hope tt i didnt have my phone back. n today gt my result slips n was a bit emo cause my GPA only 2.6. better jiayou more sia. otherwise nx term will die 1. i have 1 E8 ,1D7, 2 C5, 1A1 n 3A2. n 4 the 1 time my LA gt better than my chi. i tink when my parents come back they will kill me sia.
n i am rly so flirt n scandalous lol. everybody saying i am sia lol.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:40 PM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
omg i am so dann dead. i over strain my knee n my calf muscle. now walk also dann freaking hard, will tremble. lol n trm still nd go run lol. i tink i am gg to be dead. n sry tt i cant help out trm, must go 4 service learning. nx time try to help more ba haha. jiayou 4 SYF, still gt a few more days to combine sch pac haha.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:08 PM
Monday, March 9, 2009
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n hope my blog getting very emo cause sm is saying i am a emo guy when i am so nt la. i am rly super happy n high now. some more holidays coming leh. oh my whole week is dance dance dance haha. n somemore couples being sweet are just so entertaining but smt a bit stupid though haha. random comment. trm gt dance, hope can improve jiayou all dancers. we can do it hehe. i am rly happy, but dont rly noe y lo. n my tagboard is so dann freaking dead haha
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:00 PM
Sunday, March 8, 2009
y has it become lidat. y has all this happen. y has i been so stupid. wtf i rly dont noe wad to do. how can i make resolve this , how can i take back the harm tt i already made. dann i feel rly useless and i had make things worse. i also noe tt just saying sry wont help but ...
dann dont noe wad to do.
n wait y i shd i be so affected, i tried my best to explain leh but if she dont understand i cant help it. but the only thing i can hope now is tt she will accept it leh haiz
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:01 PM
wtf i am rly very confused now. i dont noe wad to do. i tried explaining but yet no matter how much i explain, they wont understand. i nv would hv meant wad they tot i said. all i was very objective n was nt biased totally. but wad can i do to persuade them to understand wad i mean. all i wanted to hope was tt we will try our best to be a gd senior. nvm i rly dont noe wad to do, hope they will just understand. n after knowing me so long, yet they still doubt me. but i noe it is my fault tt i gave wrong impression of wad i mean. n i am rly sry jas, i am a sucky friend tt make u even more frustrated when u are already so frustrated. i dont noe wad i can do to make u forgive me but i will try. sry if i ever sound like i have doubt u but i rly didnt ok. i am just so stupid. n sry 4 those who is angry 4 the same thing.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:45 AM
Saturday, March 7, 2009
yeah these few dance is rly mentally n physically challenging. the inter dance is dann hiong la. n we finally finish it on fri with only abt a month to SYF haha. n the date 4 our performance is confirm n tt day seem pretty meaningful lol. tell the date nx time. nt sure if can tell a nt lol
n so finally we finish the inter dance n the super dry n tiring diao started today. n in the morning did some of the dance we dance last time like teacher's day n zhui lang. i would rly like to zhui the surging waves again cause i love tt dance haha. also did some crazy stuff in the hall tt if su lao see me i am so dann dead especially when SYF is so near lol.
n finally we finish prac at 1 haha. was super tiring lol. but was very fun cause when i feel the spirit of rvds when we dance tgt as a grp. we seem to put down all our difference la and aim 4 the common goal . n the feeling is dann shuang. n looking at all the dancers putting in effort n all of us improving as we dance more, i feel happy la. chi dance getting more nui ren, senior dance getting moer mature, n inter dance getting more energtic. any if gt scolded dont feel sad of pissed cause it is 4 ur own gd. must try harder nx time. leaders must also dont be so stress mush relax. lol. with only a month left, RVDS 4 the win.
the disgusting mixture tt jas mix.
made from macflurry, chill,
1 packet of pepper, sugar, salt, coffee mate, coke.
n the reaction aft eating is recorded.
aft dance went to eat wit cheryl, jas, ching, farrah, ly, elton, dio. it was rly dann fun playing the game shoot shag marry. also aft tt we did smt tt is dann stupid n disgusting n i earn 10 buck haha. but hope i dont get diabetics because of tt lol. n when i gt home, was rly tired so when to sleep n when i woke up, i was even more happy haha. cause the reinforcement of chi dance is here haha. the fans is just in time here 4 combine sch prac. so chi dance must jiayou, ur can do it although i noe ur hv very high level of testosterone so very hard to be nui ren hehe.
finally can get in photobucket so here are the pics as promised
pics at ucc haha
elton n austin. as guai as ever
R21 pic hehe
PG version lol
the sec 4 girls haha lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 6:43 PM
Thursday, March 5, 2009
haha yeah thks 4 the person tt enlighten me haha. lol no more emo me.
finally i have found the correct mindset to tink abt this thing leh which is to hack care everything n wait lol.
wad is the point of emoing when action speaks louder than emo lol
thought i feel abit bad abt wad i am actually planning to do lol
it is time 4 round 2 haha where there is no more such things as being the mr nice guy haha lol.
no more giving advantages, it is gg to be a fair competition. hehe.
but b4 tt i must start doing preparations. n no matter wad the result is gg to happen i am so nt
gg to give in easily. this time i am gg to fight 4 wad i want n nt sit tt n let it just leave me. i have already done wad i promised, so now i am gg to go all out,
no more mercy
no more chances
no more giving up haha.
dann i sound sadistic XD
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 7:08 PM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
these few days nv blog leh haha. dance had been tiring as usual and lessons as boring as ever haha. n i had a new hair cut haha. change new songs tt very nice. n sry people didnt post any pics cause i dont noe y i cant log into photobucket. n here i want to say sry to a few ppl
1 jm 4 still suaning u n accidentally hurt ur girl
2 leo 4 also still suaning u
3 cheryl 4 also still suaning u
4 xj 4 accidentally causing the drum to hit on ur leg
5 clem 4 pangshe today
6 all the bros who went to paint drum n i pangshe ur again
n sudden i gt a enlightenment, maybe smt we shd nt push things too hard. we shd let nature take control instead. smt maybe i forcing too much will only make it worst. so i shall nt di xiao ppl, match make ppl leh. let them slowly pei yang haha.
ok these part maybe a bit emo but is nth much la, so stupid things tt happen to me this few days
i realise i am just toooo dann late to do anything at all
i was fighing a war tt i was nv able to win.
but at the same time i am nt able to get out of it
finally when wad i always preferred wanted to happen rly happen.
i could nt accept the fact tt it actually happen
this feeling just sucks but i cant let it go.
i rly want to say this thing out but i just cant.
cause i have to wait n i am still waiting 4 it to happen
but wad is the point of waiting when it is already so endless n pointless
all i can rly do now is wait n let time fly past asap where everything will eventually come to an end :)
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:12 PM
Sunday, March 1, 2009
life hv been all abt dance these few days. friday had dann tiring training but den went to watch wang lao shi concert at ucc. saw kai ge n edi n mun han. so long nv see the these seniors leh. n l8r saw wad it meant was professional dancing. 8 dancers dance 4 2 hrs. with imba stamina, imba skills, imba speed, imba expression, imba dancing skills. dont tink can ever be like den la. haha.
sat had to come to sch to train more n we are picking up pace hope can finish in time to at lest diao a bit. n is dann happy to see all 3 dance putting in a lot of effort to achieve wad we aim to achieve. everybody is putting in hard work. hehe.
chinese dance gals must jiayou ok. life maybe hard, where everythings seems so hopeless but u must stay strong ok. cause ur can do it 1. so try to work harder n find the correct feeling to dance tt dance well. lets work tgt to do best in all the 3 dances ok. haha RVDS FTW.
no time to post pics post pics at the nx post haha.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:01 PM
