Monday, April 27, 2009
dann i am rly died for my mid yrs. i am nt even in exam mood n prepartation. keep on digressing n tink abt things tt i shd nt be tinking. n i suddenly like weekdays although studying is tiring. dann i dont 1 self study weeks. den cant go sch leh. anw thks bro 4 ur present although 1 time see ur buy so mei you jian she xing de present. maybe a bit gal but still love it haha. ur gave me 1 street tag, black tofu, 1 pair of gally ear-ring, n a pair of shoe laces. every1 of them show how much ur noe abt wad i like but sian i rly gg to miss ur haha. now is time to make ss notes haha. bb. jiayou everybody 4 the mid yrs haha
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 6:37 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
haha today is my mum's birthday haha. so cool our birthday is 1 day aft another hehe.
in april 17, 24 25 hathere are so much time in the past to rmb.all this event had been so important tt it hv change me n let me grow up haha. it is nt only abt zhuilang, my birthday or my birthday haha. but still it is pretty important hehe.
n must i rly say things nicely. like if u are sick i shd say are u ok, can a nt. or cant i just say u wont die rite . maybe the sec 1 sound very crude but wad it actually meant hope u get ok n dont die haha. maybe most people wont like it but i dont care haha
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:45 AM
Friday, April 24, 2009
haha today i am finally legal to watch nc 16 movies. also legal 4 tt kind of thing leh hehe. there are rly many ppl tt i want to thk leh
first up i want to thk wei lin, siu min.kimberly, shermaine,
clement,li hua,tracy, anise,michelle,sharlene, huey ying,
brenda,xuewei, jun ming,jaslynn,elton,leong yu,farrah,serene, simin for the sms haha. some was rly sweet n nice haha. many asking me to grow up, dont emo n gd luck in my love life haha lol.
den up nx i hv to thk, jiahao, kit kay, hui zhen, qian qi, cheryl, leonard, austin, zhai yang, zhi wei, wei qiang, kirsten, yee sing, zi ning,sandra, abigial,yun han, jason, qi xin, zhi cong, wilson, yu jie, si qi, jia wei, jian tong, zhi xin, ivan, ru yan, pei yao, shu ying for wishing me happy birthday thk 4 actually rmbing my birthday haha. dann honoured tt i actually took up some space in ur brain lol.
n dancers for actually planning to eat out tgt but due to stupid remedias, it was cancelled. still will thk 4 the heart n rly appreciated it. nvm let hope 4 a nx time. love rvds hehe
den i have to thk tracy for the 1 present haha. the marshmallow was nice. the letter was cool
den hv to thk jordyn n michelle for the brownies tt we rly nice. thk 4 the effort
den is xuewei for also a brownie tt was also nice though can improve haha.
den is hueying for the nice key chain. i noe i dann sexy dont nd tell me haha. n the lollipop haha
den is bess who gave me a pencil case of dora, although doesnt rly suits my type haha.
den lok hang 4 the cookies that will be dann nice. cant bear to eat it.
den is chee yang 4 giving me a lu bu figure tt is pretty big like i t alot haha. shall thk the others nx time, cause this are all i have now lol
but the most touching thing today was actually chee yang planned for me a surprised party 4 me. thk a lot man. it like he invited 2G07 ppl la, like abi, jason. lok hang, clement, huey ying, bess, jordyn, michelle. just wit their existance on such a day was happy enough haha. rly was dann happy la. thk chee yang for all this, rly apreciated it. without this my day wont hv been brighten up. i rly loved every effort u done. i rly dont noe wad to do to show my appreciation sia haha. i rly thk everybody for their msg, wishes, presents n the party. it has rly brighten up my day haha. i will rmb this day.
although there are some regrets, still the gd things are deserve celebrating haha. hope nx yr wont leave wit this regret any more. tt was more wish haha. n elton, u shd noe the result. maybe it is rly fate ba. so it is time to let it go haha
zi lian ppl haha
spastic lok hang haha
dann nice pic sia haha
ta baoing some cake for some ppl haha
a very wrong action tt is part of my birthday bash lol clem's hand
getting raped haha
nice group pics
the cake haha
all the food
the wishing haha
the blowing haha
sadistic way to cut a cake haha
normal way to cut haha
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 10:28 PM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
today take full nafa in 1 day. did 2.4km in the morning den 5 stations in the afternoon. somemore today hv dann lot of lessons n chem remedia haha. dann tiring haha. but a bit . a bit sad wit the results haha. super noob sia. 2
only did 8pull ups
jump 2.36m
sprint 10.5s
sit up 54
stretch 52cm
the only thing tt is acceptable was my 2.4 improve leh. gt 9.37 mins. hope can improve to 9 by this yr. lucky i took nafa 1 day b4 my birthday or i rly will die, all the standard will increase hehe. n this sucks i am rly noob in my phyical. rly must buck up leh la. n 1 more day haiz hehe
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:23 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
ok so in the end we gd 3 golds. maybe nt wad we expected but shd be proud of it haha. rvds 4tw lol. today was rly boring but at last the party was rly fun where we forget the result and celebrate our effort and hardwork. also it was a chane to express our thk to all we had help us in 1 way or another.
dann looking 4ward to the nx syf. must pia like siao in 1 yr n do well nx time. but still this will be useless if fate does allow me. 2 more days b4 i make my decision haha. although elton seems very sure wad happen wont change the fact tt i will be staying haha.
n b4 i go start mugging like a dog. qn thk 4 putting up such a gd display of su nui on stage haha. was rly proud n jiayou hehe. (love ur???? weird 4 me to say lol) haha
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:58 PM
Monday, April 20, 2009
haha today is 1 time nv sleep in lesson aft syf. does miss it pretty much though. n dann lots of h to catch up. dont understand chem, math, geo. almost like all the topic la. if dont buck up now. can say bb to my mid yr which is only 2 more weeks away.
anw trm is chinese dance turn to take the stage leh so jiayou gals haha. show them ur shu nuiness haha. best let the judges eyes all go popping provided the judge is abit the hmh.. u noe wad i mean lol. so gals gd luck 4 trm n all the best, will be witnessing rv new batch of chio bus lol haha. rest enough n dont stress urself too much, must hv the feel hehe...........
jiayou to njcd also haha. we are all grateful to ur as our seniors n we will always support ur so jiayou haha. ur can do it lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 7:20 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
ok finally i hv resolve. took me like dann long to tink through abt it.
this thing has finally ended and there no nd to tink abt it. the only to do is remember the past and prepare 4 the future. i cant stop and fall now, it will rly be pointless, there are many thing tt must be done. i noe i am super useless now n cant do anything. my result suck, my dancing skills sucks, every part of me sucks. but wad ever it is, i wont make this thing continue. this is the time to improve. the syf has let me grow a lot. it let me realised my flaws n noe wad i shd improve on. also the syf has become a source of motivation i cant let my life go to waste leh. i rly must strike the best in everything.
also b4 the time to leave i want to at lest contribute it 4 the last time
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:14 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
if the process of syf was a sweet dream, i rather nv wake up to face the nightmare of reality
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:54 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009
finally is the weekend can take gd rest. shall be gg to sleep the whole day today. n although this is the end of our journey, it is the begin of another. also let pull through tgt wit the rest of our friends whose journey tt has yet to complete. maybe we be there to support them for the final leg of their race hehejiayou qn lol.
i rly cnt take this anw more. this thing will rly blow out any moment. i tink it is rly time to give it up, end it n let it go cause i rly cant do a single shit. i failed in every aspect in everything. maybe i rly nt deserve to be who i am. all i am is worst than a failure. i didnt live up to even the expectation of myself. i am rly beyond hopeless. sry elton 4 putting faith in the wrong person. my journey end here. jiayou 4 urs ok. all yr 4 guys jiayou ok, nx syf will rly be tough n hardcore. hope ur can pull through it. sry i wont be wit ur anw haiz. but relax ppl i will nt give up on myself so easily, if i am useless, i will try my best to be less useless. so the end of my journey is just to prepare for the longer road ahead.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 5:30 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
lol today the result is out. matsuri gt gold while the yr 5 also. but the yr 5 rly must hv done dann well. shock the stage. ur are rly gd lo so cheer up all. n matsuria also cheer up ok, ur did equally well wit all the effort done. n sry 4 wad i say if it seem very harsh didnt meant tt, i tink i rly a bit siao leh, dont noe wad i said. dont take it to heart la. fianlly everything has come to an end, no matter wad the result is, it is a begin of another journey. i dont noe y am i feeling lidat rly contradicting myself. like it but still say until lidat. haiz maybe nt enough sleep ba. hope everything goes well
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:05 PM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
finally it is over but somehow i will rly missed it. nd to back to sch work though i rather dance syf for my whole life.
today morning woke up was very excited. can sch also super excited. den did lots of preparation n look dann gd wit our make up hehe. den nose started bleeding n was dann worried i will drag the whole team down.
n soon we went to ucc to prepare for our turn. the waiting was pretty stressfuy. but the most touching part was when we were waiting under the stage. every1 was like motivating each other, guan xing. rly very gan dong la. feel united. den just before we enter the stage, we were already boosted wit lots of motivation as all our souls n mind seem to be linked, which is to dance well haha. n during the process of dancing, we were getting more energtic instead of tired. we were dann high n sreacm like crazy ppl la. we were also rly very happy. n feeling of us dance tgt is rly very gd n i was rly no comments abt it. n finally we finish the dance wit no regrets. n we didnt felt tired at all n i even did 2 ce kongs surprisingly lol.
matsuri ppl i rly enjoy every moment on the stage, rly ur were awesome n i am rly proud of every single of u.if there was missing person the dance wont be perfect. though there might be still some flaws but is also because of our jing shen tt makes this flaws seem so minor. so no matter wad happens, wad is the result. i want ur to still be proud cause we rly hv put in the effort, n tt jing shen is worth so much more. i rly want to thk ur 4 giving me this chance to dance wit every single 1 of ur. it was an honour haha. hope we can pass down this jing shen to our juniors to. may this be our trademark haha
n i want to use this chance to thank all who has help us, the teachers, the instructors, the seniors, our friends , dancers , juniors etc. there are rly too many ppl i want to thk. i rly dont noe how shd i say to express mygratitude. this dance could nt hv been possible without ur effort. jiayou 4 everything ok.
n through this syf i gain rly a lot. the most touching part was every 1 working tgt regardless of which dance u are in. is like rvds suddenly become 1 big family haha. we am rly proud to be a member of such a family. the unity n strogns bonds we hv is rly smt i rly very touching, i am rly proud of all dancers. rvds ftw. meta n an ur must jiayou also, we will be there to back u up hehe.
aft sch aft so long the guys finally when eat chicken rice tgt. wit 14 guys present out of 23.. though a bit sad tt some nv come la haha. is their lose man cause the feeling to eat wit guys is rly very shuang so shuang tt i almost cried. bros i love u ok haha.
dann getting dann emotional sia. like almost cry 4 time in a day haha. but all very touching tt y lol.
n these few days a bit busy forget to say
happy birthday to kim which is on 13april
happy birthday to simin which is on 14 april
happy birthday to weilin which is on 15 april n last but nt lest
happy birthday to su lao which is also on 15 april. soooo cool all their birthday all 1 line 1 lol
today is rly a great day tt i will nv forget. all the experience n joy hehe. it will stay part of me forever. soo much happy things happy things rock lol.
if only i have more time i would want to say more. rly there are so many great things tt happen haah
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:01 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
1 more day n all will finally end. suddenly miss this dance sia. all the put in by all of us lol. all the fun times we had, all the sad things tt happen. all will finally come to a conclusion trm. dann rly feel abit sad. still ppl let jiayou trm haha. 1 more day, 1 more day of hardwork, 1 more day of a tired body n mind n 1 more day of matsuri. so let cherish it n enjoy it. feel tt we are dancing tgt. feeling the person beside u as we dance in unity n scream as 1 sound. so lets rock the stage wit our energetic dance n express our happiness n bring a smile to all the audience.
WE can do it
ok dont noe y i tink i suck a lot. make dann lot of ppl pissed but rly dann hopless. shd just fall down n rot.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:49 PM
Monday, April 13, 2009
ok today was a rly slak day poning like almost half of the lessons. den was the preview n suddenly nd to wear make up. sry bro, screw some of the make up haha. rly caused dann lot of trouble sia. den the preview, the seniors did dann well, qian nui dance better n matsuri improved. we shd feel proud. although we can do better, lets push ourselves to our best by wed. we can do it. n thk 4 the sch 4 supporting us. ur support is a great pushing force. sry jm for nt being able to help u in fact causing more trouble la. i rly dont noe how to help, i rly dann useless rite.
i am rly fucking useless man. always create unnecessary trouble. making other ppl cover up. i also super mei jian she xing, causing stupid things to happen, like hai py break his hand. i also cant dance well at all la. teacher give me chance but i just waste it. all the time i always make mistake tt destroy the dance. i also dont focus at all, nt dancing wit all my effort when every1 is putting in effort. myabe i rly dann useless. only noe how to do stupid things tt are useless. of no help at all. maybe i shd quit dance cause so much problem haiz. since young always dann stupid la. always playing a fool n nt doing things seriously. always causing trouble. when ppl are imrove i am like deproving. i hv super lots of problems la. smt things is all my fault la. i dont 1 to put all the ppl effort to waste. there is only 1 chance. n tt stress is rly killing me.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:49 PM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
today had prac at ucc n the experience was nt rly pleasant but we still no matter wad happen we cant give up now. we must stay strong n jian chi. we can be emo but aft emo, we must hv even more motivation to dance well. cause we i noe we can do it 1. it nt like we are too noob or the dance is too difficult. i rly believe tt we can rly do it if we put in all our full efforts and full concentration. so aft today we only left a few days can we just go out n do all our best. i noe all of us are tired both physically and mentally, but we must bear wit it. we shd get motivation from each other. cause in the dance, we are all like comrades n we are dancing tgt 4 a common goal. so when u feel like giving up, find faith from the person beside u. we shd also pull our friends tt feel like giving to continue as we progress as a team. i believe if we rly jiayou n untued as 1, putting down our difference, skin colour, sex, height, age, weight, hair length etc we can rly achieve wad we hope 4. even if it didnt turn out well, we still hv a comrade to cry wit and support each other. lets the experience forever be rmb how we work tgt, how we sweat tgt, ho we cry to tgt , how we smile happily tgt, n the result wont be the most imortant n it will also nt be disappointing. so jiayou ppl. RVDS FTW hehe
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:11 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
went to cut hair today tt is dann cheap. like only 3.80 haha. dann worth it. now all the rvds guys in inter dance hv the similar hairstyle unless ur hair is too short. jm hox. n it seem like my hair nv cut at all la. still dann long la. hope trm su lao wont kill me haha. trm is ucc pra. if i am lucky i wont be biten by a mad dog, if nt i tink i wont leave ucc alive haha. jiayou inter dancers. we still hv a few more days to pull through n we can do it. we can make a MIRACLE lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 6:29 PM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
today saw our costume and it look quite cool and sexy. dont noe shd the guys go shave off their leg cause we will be showcasing our thigh muscles haha. n thk to the qian nu gals we are able to finish "decorating" the drum haha. rly very kind of them haha. n ytd was a rly sucky day. nv wish tt such a day would actually exist. jiayou RVCB, ur did ur best n ur shd be proud of urslf no matter wad happen. the students will always support ur haha. shd we say we are proud of u. so cheer up hx and kim.
this is rly dann fuck up. wtf are do u tink u are doing. rubbing salt on a wound tt is still fresh. they did their best already n yet u are still nt happy. the result is only 1 aspect of SYF yet u take it as if it is every thing. does achievements so important tt u dont care abt wad the students are feeling. if this is it, i can only say u fail nt only as a adult but also as a principal. rly wad would the other ccas tink, if they fail to meet the standard the sch set, it means we fail. den i fucking rather i get a COP 4 syf but enjoy the process n grow up n improve in my skills. cant u see how much effort the students as put in. they rly sacrificed so much tt it is rly heart breaking to see ur nt appreciating it. damm i rly dont feel like getting a gd result 4 syf. cause there is no point in it. SYF only become a tool of rv to show off, nt improve the students holistical. the whole education system is fuck up sia. wad holistic developement when u only care abt results. wtf this is rly suck cork ...
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:56 PM
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Today the normal day tt was pretty boring. Played like meboy 4 the whole day la. CID was as slak as usually. The whole team was playing pokemon dann no life la. Den don’t noe for wad reason mr lim was dann pissed wit me 4 stupid reasons la. Don’t noe leh he l8rly like PMS everyday dann angry 1 lol.
N den aft dance it was rly crazy, dance like a lot n tiring. Also noe a lot of dirty sercrets of some dance seniors n lot of pretty RA things lol. also qn look dann chio now wit the new costume. it looks la, make the gals look dann su nui. chio ppl look more chio now. nt so ppl look chio lol haha. (no names just in case ppl kill me)But sian inter still hv 1 more week n 1 day n yet we are still dann bad. Hope we can make a miracle happen n the dance become godly In less than 8 days lol. But to make tt miracle it will be gg to be hard work .but I don’t noe If my body can take it any more. It rly want to break down rite now. My determination is weakening. My body is tired. I rly gg to fall sick la. Is like 1 day u nose bleed 3 time 4 nth. Lose so much blood plus lack of sleep , plus too much stress plus lots of things. I am rly gg to fall sick. But y fall sick now. This is so nt the time to fall sick. I rly nd a motivation n push my self. N also hv a super gd rest , I rly nd it
n jiayou Kimberly, still gt 1 more day to go to SYF jiayou hox, u can do it 1. N gd luck to RVCB in their SYF central judging trm lol.
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:26 PM
Monday, April 6, 2009
haiz 1 test down n 1 more test to go haha. dont noe will i die 4 my chem test a nt. heard is very hard sia.
but anw, meet parent was dann bad. gt f**** up by the teachers rly badly esp lim. flame me abt sleeping in class n playing too much GC. haiz, gt scolded rly badly, but WHO CARES l
ol. n 2 more days to band SYF n anther 9 more days to mine.
still i feel like i am nt putting in my best n so is everybody else. we have nt even reach our limits yet. we can like do so much better but we just chose nt to. haiz if this continue i dont noe wad will happen. still will try to push my limits, for the seniors tt left, for the reputation of rvds tt has been sustain, and most importantly 4 myself.
trm gt cid which is a slak day, most likely playing wit my new toy MEBOY haha. dann if this continues my mid yr is a goner man. worst still gt cca, haiz but at lest can see chio bu(in ly point of view haha) lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 8:34 PM
Friday, April 3, 2009
today is a sucky day. damm.
1 it was phy test.
2 was scolded by maths teacher. say when i gt energy i play GC. when no energy den go sleeo
3 dance was sucky didnt dance very well. noob sia
4 wasted dann lot of time looking for my ezlink card
5smt happen tt was dann bad.(hope it is ok now)
6gt pissed off n sian diao because of tt thing and behave stupidly
7my bros all emo
*jm dann stress because of dance
*SQ stress because of competition
* leo because of personal problems
toady just dann shit
hope trm can be better.
n bleach sucks today also lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:02 PM
Thursday, April 2, 2009
haha today went to offshore singapore to singapore's only land fill. was dann fun la, the guide was very funny n fun. we learn abt more the land fill. (though i personally feel it was like a session of teach us to be more environmental friendly)
the most fun part was actually the boat ride. enjoy the sea breeze tt is dann shu fu. made me tot abt zhui lang also. miss tt dance a lot. we even play pranks on the boat tt i tink i shall nt say much. shall post some pics nx time.
n yeah finally i gt my new com haha. god dann happy la. n the best part is it is dann freaking fast haha. love it man. shall go spamming games haah. byebye lol
n shall spam 4 inter dance. suddenly i found back my motivation. n most importantly how to feel happy abt during the dance. though the method a bit hua chi haha lol
love is like heaven but it hurts like hell . 9:04 PM
